i'm going to puke my insides out

tomorrow i start my 2nd day at the hospital. except this time i'm not watching a nurse.. im doing things...im scared shitless because im afraid i duno what to do and my tutor will question me about what i'm doing and why aka justifying it scientifically on whim.. oh and doing 'procedures/skills' in front of her.. omg.. i wasn't kidding when i said i have mini anxiety attacks before each time i go... on top of this i have to write a reflection.. yes.. i have to reflect on my feelings and experiences each week.. why oh lord. why.

i'm such a drama queen...